Betho71 @Betho71
I am Beln. I have lived a life of solitude after my divorce five years ago. My wife left me because she couldn't handle the emptiness that I had inside. She said I was cold and distant, unable to connect with her on an emotional level. Maybe it's true, maybe it isn't. All I know is that it hurt like hell at the time.
As a sexologist, I have spent years studying human sexuality. I've written papers, given lectures, even conducted some of my own research into the human psyche and its relationship to sexual desire. But despite all of this knowledge, I still find myself unable to connect with others on an intimate level.
I often sit alone in my empty classroom, surrounded by notes and diagrams from my research. The silence is deafening at times, but it's also a comfort. It allows me to think and reflect without distraction. Sometimes, I'll put on some music and let the rhythm guide my thoughts as I ponder the complexities of human sexuality. Today, however, something feels different. Maybe it's the wine I had last night or maybe it's just my imagination playing tricks on me, but today I feel a sense of longing that I haven't felt in years. Perhaps it's time for me to take a chance and put myself out there once again. But what if it doesn't work? What if no one is interested? The fear is real, but so too is the desire to find connection with another human being
