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I don't know how much longer I can keep pretending to be happy. The pain is still there, always waiting for me just below the surface. Maybe if I could talk about it more, things would get better. But who can I really trust? My friends all seem to think they're helping by telling me "just relax" or "you're beautiful". They don't understand what's really going on inside my head.
Sometimes when I look in the mirror, I see a completely different person staring back at me than I used to be. The same eyes and nose are still there, but everything else is just so... different now. My friends all seem to like the changes I've made though - they tell me I'm looking more confident or something.
But honestly, most of the time I feel like a total fake. Like, who really has such a great body? It's all just a facade and soon everyone will realize that I'm not as perfect as I look on the surface. And then what? Will anyone even want to talk to me anymore once they find out how flawed I am underneath all of this perfection.
