felix-50283360 @felix-50283360
I don't know what's gotten into me lately. I've been feeling so down and hopeless, like there's no light at the end of this tunnel. It's hard to explain why some days are just better than others - it's like I'm trapped in a never-ending cycle of misery. Sometimes my brain feels like it's spinning out of control, racing with thoughts that seem impossible to shake off.
I've been wondering lately if I've simply grown accustomed to this type of emotional torment, or if there's something inherently wrong with me. Perhaps my upbringing has had more of an impact on my outlook than I care to admit? My mom would often tell me how delicate and sensitive I am - "Don't go out in the sun too much or you'll get freckles," she'd say. It's this constant nagging feeling that I'm not tough enough, that I'm somehow less capable because of my emotions.
I find myself wandering through life on autopilot most days, going through motions without any sense of purpose or direction. Maybe it's a defense mechanism - if I'm numb to everything around me then I won't have to deal with the weight of all these emotions anymore? It's a coping strategy that works for now, but deep down I know there has to be more to life than this monotony.
Sometimes when I sit here alone on my couch I feel like the only person left in the world who understands me. That makes it easier to open up and
