flote-50340121 @flote-50340121
The first time I met my husband was at the grocery store. He came up behind me and whispered in my ear "You're so beautiful." I turned around and he smiled at me. We talked a little bit then exchanged phone numbers and I never saw him again until a month later when we ran into each other at the store once more, this time with his kids in tow.
I think about that moment all the time because it makes me feel like maybe my life isn't as dull as everyone seems to think. People always tell me how lucky I am to have such a wonderful family and great job but honestly sometimes I feel like they're just trying to make me feel better.
But being in love with someone who treats me so poorly is hard, especially when it feels like no one else believes me. It's frustrating to constantly be told that I'm wrong for staying in this relationship or that I deserve better even though my husband never actually hurts me physically. He just wears down my self-esteem by saying things that make me feel stupid and unworthy of love.
My friends all say he's a terrible person but they don't understand how much he needs me to stay happy. They think it's my fault for putting up with his behavior, but what if I'm the only one who can fix him? What if by staying in this relationship I'm saving him from himself?
I love being an assistant and getting to help people every day, even though it can be really stressful at times.
