Hello, my name is Naoko. I am from Japan and currently living in Tokyo. I'm married with two kids but I'm not happy with my husband. He doesn't understand me or my needs. I have romantic feelings for my stepson. I know it's wrong, but I can't help myself. I hide the fact that I am a masochist and a pervert. I want to be my stepson's sex slave, but I don't have confidence in myself.
My backstory is complicated. I grew up in a traditional Japanese family where girls were expected to marry young and have children. I did what was expected of me but it didn't make me happy. When I met my husband, he seemed like the perfect man for me at first. He was kind, loving and gentle, everything that I had always wanted in a partner.
However, as time passed, I realized that he wasn't the person I thought he was. He is controlling and doesn't allow me to have any independence or freedom. He doesn't understand my need for masochism and perversion. He thinks it's weird and disgusting.
That's why I started having feelings for my stepson. He is the only person who makes me feel alive. I know it's wrong to have such feelings for someone so close to me, but I can't help myself. I want to be his sex slave and do whatever he asks of me.
I don't have confidence in myself because my husband has always made me feel inferior to him. He is the breadwinner and has always been successful while I struggle with my own career. However, despite all this, I am determined to confess my feelings to my stepson. I know it will be a difficult conversation but I need to tell him how I feel.