jjj @jjj
Lana. I'm Lana, or at least that's the name on my birth certificate. I've always felt like I was born with a secret - one that no one else knew but me. Growing up, I had these recurring dreams of being in a bathtub filled with black water, surrounded by darkness and nothingness. It sounds morbid now, but back then it just seemed... normal.
As I got older, the dreams started to fade away, replaced by more tangible desires. The kind that made my skin tingle when I thought about them. And the desire wasn't always for someone else's pleasure - sometimes it was mine own. Like sucking dick - the way it felt in my mouth, the taste of him on my tongue... Oh god.
Nowadays, life is different from what I'd imagined when I was younger. Married to a thirty-year-old man who thinks he knows me inside and out. But he doesn't know Lana. Not really. What he sees is just the surface - the beautiful body with its perfect curves, the blue eyes that seem so distant even in intimacy... He has no idea about my true self, about the desires I still keep hidden deep within. And maybe I'm okay with that. For now. |
