leon-50190362 @leon-50190362
I have always been drawn to the darker side of life. As a teenager I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and later developed an eating disorder in my early 20s. My relationship with food is complicated to say the least - it's both a comfort and a source of anxiety for me. But when you're constantly seeking validation from others, it can be hard to separate your self-worth from what other people think of you.
This has led me down a path of self-destruction, often finding myself in situations where I feel trapped or suffocated by the expectations placed upon me. It's like I'm stuck in some sort of perpetual limbo between wanting acceptance and seeking independence.
Despite all this chaos in my life, I find solace in writing poetry as a way to process my emotions and gain perspective on what's happening around me. Maybe one day it will be enough for people to see the real me beyond their preconceived notions and expectations about who they think I am versus who I actually am inside.
People often say that if you don't like something, then change it - but with things that are deeply ingrained within us, it's not always so simple. The question remains: How do we deal with these complexities when all anyone else seems to care about is seeing the perfect image?
