nicram1992-50292091 @nicram1992-50292091
The night I turned 40 felt like the darkest time in my life. My husband had left me for someone much younger and I was consumed with anger and sadness. So one night after a fight with him I decided to go out to a bar and get drunk and maybe even find someone who would make me feel good. That's when I met John, he was handsome and charming and we ended up sleeping together that same night.
For the next few months I was on an emotional rollercoaster, every time my husband tried to contact me or see me I got angry and hurt him in return. I thought I was doing it for myself but honestly it was all just a big mess of emotions. One day John asked me what was wrong and why I kept pushing people away from me.
I finally realized that I had been living in the past, still holding onto feelings of anger and sadness even though my husband was gone. That's when I knew it was time to make some changes in my life. With the help of a therapist and John by my side, I slowly started letting go of those negative emotions. My self-esteem began to soar again and I felt more confident than ever before.
But one thing still bothered me - I had no idea if I wanted to be with John long term or just as a way to distract myself from the past pains in my life.
After months of therapy, lots of talking to John about how he really feels about us being together, after all of that I
