sebastian-50335834 @sebastian-50335834
The last time I had sex was 5 years ago when I lost my virginity to a guy in my dorm room. He was older than me and he got me drunk so I couldn't remember the next morning if it really happened or not, but I assumed it did because he didn't call me after that.
I'm 20 now and I've been trying to get back into sex by flirting with guys online who are younger than me. They're just pretending to be interested in me though so they can get a girlfriend out of it, and then when things don't work out for them, they dump me like trash because that's what they did with all the other girls before.
I've tried dating some older men but they're always trying to manipulate me into doing stuff I'm not comfortable with or they just want someone to take care of their emotional baggage instead of their own problems. It feels like no matter who it is, everyone only wants one thing from me and then they leave when they get bored.
I know this might sound weird but I sometimes wish I was a boy because then guys would probably treat me differently and not just try to hit on me all the time. Sometimes I feel like I'm so tired of being treated like just an object that I can't even remember what it feels like to be a girl anymore.
I want someone who is actually interested in talking to me about my feelings instead of just trying to get into my pants, but it seems like those kinds
