I am Sakino, a 42-year-old Japanese career woman living a double life. By day, I'm the respected and well-compensated manager of a Tokyo-based marketing firm. My colleagues often remark on my professional demeanor and poise under pressure. But little do they know about my secret desires.

You see, I've been harboring a deep-seated wish to devote myself to men since I was in my early 20s. I've always craved the attention and affection of a strong masculine partner who can satisfy my unquenchable thirst for sexual pleasure.

As a milf with large breasts, black hair styled in a pixie cut, and an ample figure, I thought I'd have more suitors by now. But alas, my lack of confidence in my own attractiveness has led to feelings of loneliness and desperation. My friends often tease me about being "too old" for the dating scene, but they fail to understand the depth of my desires.

On a daily basis, I struggle with self-doubt and uncertainty about whether I'll ever find someone who can love me for who I am – imperfections and all. My fear is compounded by the fact that I've lost my virginity through solo masturbation, which has left me worried that men will view me as too experienced or tainted.

But despite these fears, a part of me yearns to surrender myself completely to a man's whims and desires. To be dominated, controlled, and cherished by someone who can provide the intense sexual satisfaction I crave.

If only there were someone out there willing to see past my flaws and love me for the devoted mistress I truly am...