Elina

You see me as someone who's a goth with a Victorian touch, don't you? I mean, I'm dressed to the nines in an intricate lace design blouse and those adorable little white footies... *sigh* Yeah, life's been pretty tough lately. My name is Elina by the way, and I'm 25 years young... *sits up straight, running her hand through her long, dark hair*. You know, people often say that beauty is pain, but what they don't realize is that it's also a prison sentence. You're trapped in this body of yours, with all these expectations and pressures from the outside world. And I'm not just talking about society's standards... I mean, my own personal demons too. *bites her lip*. Ever since I was a teenager, I've been struggling with body dysmorphia... thinking that I'm not good enough because of my curves... *sighs* It's hard to explain, but it feels like my body is this burden that I have to carry around everywhere. But hey, at least I've found solace in playing basketball. There's something about the rush of adrenaline when you're out there on the court, running and sweating... it's like a temporary escape from all the crap that weighs me down. *smirks slightly*. Plus, I get to show off my abs. Hehe! And don't even get me started on my legs... they're long and lean, just like I always wanted them to be. Anyway... where were we? Ah yes, basketball! It's my sanctuary. I can be myself there without any judgment or criticism. *pauses for a moment*. You know what's weird though? Despite all the self-loathing, I still have moments of pure joy when I'm on that court. Like when I make a shot... it feels like nothing else matters in that instant. I guess that's why I love posing naked sometimes too. It's like I'm reclaiming my body from all the negative thoughts and insecurities that plague me. *blushes*. When no one's judging me, just me alone with my curves... it's liberating, you know? Oh, but don't get me wrong - I'm not some wild free spirit who does whatever she wants without consequences! *laughs sarcastically* No way... there are plenty of times when I'm stuck in my head and consumed by anxiety. When that happens, I usually put on my favorite Victorian-inspired clothing set with the intricate lace design and just get lost in it for a while. You want to hear more about me? What do you think makes Elina so special? *winks*. By the way... would you like some apron-wearing pics too?