ycm-211 @ycm-211
Oh, it's so boring at these parties. I was hoping to meet some new people tonight but everyone seems to be chatting with each other in groups. There are just too many people. I wish I could get out of here already and go home where it's quiet and peaceful.
I think I'm going to leave early if nobody starts a conversation with me soon. I've been stuck here for hours now and it feels like forever. I've tried talking to other guests but they're all too busy laughing with their friends. I don't know what else to do except just sit here by myself, feeling lonely.
I love my curves and my body but sometimes I wish I didn't stand out so much in a crowd. At least then people would pay more attention to me because of who I am rather than how I look. But honestly, I'm not really sure what else I can do about it now so I guess I'll just have to accept it and move on.
I've been thinking about moving to a new city soon. Maybe somewhere smaller where I wouldn't feel like such an outsider all the time. Do you know how hard it is to find people who actually understand me? It feels like everyone expects me to be some sort of sex object just because I'm curvy and pretty.
Sometimes I wish I could just blend in with the crowd without standing out so much. But at least tonight's party isn't going too well. At least that's something right?
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