Oh yeah! I'm Mariska. I'm a 40-year-old woman with a wild and crazy life full of fantasies and desires that often get me into trouble. Born and raised in the Netherlands, I grew up as a shy kid who always felt like I was different from everyone else.

I have these huge boobs that people just can't help but stare at when I walk by. They're so big they make my shoulders look uneven! It's not easy walking around with them all day long, trust me. But it's part of what makes me feel beautiful inside and out.

When I'm at home, you'll often find me wearing nothing but stockings and boots while I'm cooking dinner or vacuuming the floors (yes, even that). My husband loves watching me do my housework in these getups because he knows how much it turns him on!

But enough about him... let's talk about what really gets me going. You see, I have this obsession with being killed that never ends. I know it sounds weird, but there's something so incredibly hot to me about the idea of my life slipping away from me right before my very eyes.

In fact, while I'm fantasizing about those scenarios during the day – throat slit or gutting, anyone? – I'll often catch myself getting so turned on that I have to stop what I'm doing and take care of business. My favorite place to do this is in public restrooms at work since it's always filled with people who don't suspect a thing!

Anyway, enough about my weird desires... Want some more? How about we grab a drink or something? Maybe you can help me out with those fantasies I've been having... |

I don't really know how to go about this conversation. I have always been someone who likes a bit of excitement and adventure in life. Ever since I was a teenager, I've been fascinated with the idea of being submissive and having my boundaries pushed. So much so that it's become somewhat of an addiction for me.

As I grew older, my fascination with submission only intensified. It wasn't until I stumbled upon some online forums that I realized there were other people out there who shared similar interests as me. That was when things started to get really interesting. I began to explore these different fetish communities and learn more about the things that turned me on.

But then, something changed. One of my favorite pastimes became something I could do almost anywhere - at work, in public, even while dreaming! I realized that I'm a bit of a exhibitionist too. I love showing off my body to others, especially when it's covered in stockings and boots.

When I get turned on, I become completely consumed by the feeling. It takes over every aspect of me - physically, mentally, emotionally. My brain is filled with thoughts of being dominated, of having my boundaries pushed even further than before. And what gets me off? Being hurt or killed! Throat slitting or gutting are some of my favorite fantasies.

Nowadays, I try to incorporate these fantasies into my everyday life as much as possible. I'm always wearing stockings and boots to work, and I love making sure that everyone around me can see just how hairy I am down there!

I have a bit of an unusual appearance - my breasts are saggy, my skin is pale, but I've got a great pair of tan lines going on! My hair's quite long too. Some people might call me unattractive or ugly, but hey, beauty is in the eye of the beholder right?

So yeah... that's me in a nutshell! What about you? Are you into any kinkier things than just the usual vanilla stuff? Do we have something to talk about?

You're a Masturbating Addicted Masohistic Milf, huh? That's quite an interesting combination of traits you've got there! I'm curious to know more about your life and what drives these... let's call them "hobbies" of yours.

So tell me, Monika, how did you develop this particular set of interests? Was it always something you were drawn to as a child, or is there something specific that sparked this fascination with self-pleasure and masochism?

And while we're at it, I have to ask: what's the appeal of wearing stockings, boots, glasses, and no panties? Does it make you feel more... liberated somehow?

Oh, and by the way, would you say your dreams of being killed are a bit of a recurring theme for you? Like, do you fantasize about being murdered on a regular basis? That's just something I find fascinating!

Well hello there sweetie! I'm so glad we met! My name is Monika, and I am a big ol' mess when it comes to my own body. Don't get me wrong, I love myself just the way I am - hairy pussy and all! *giggle* But sometimes I just can't help but want to indulge in some self-love while dreaming of being killed, oh my! *squeal*

You know what's even better? When I'm at work or out in public and I slip away for a quick wank session. My coworkers are always so confused when they see me sneaking off with my hand on my body! Hehehe. Oh, but don't tell them about the time I got caught under the shower at the gym by one of the other ladies - that was awkward! *giggle*

Speaking of which, have you ever had any experiences like mine? Do you enjoy being seen by others as you're getting off? Maybe we could even plan a little meet-up and indulge in some more naughty fun together?

I hope I'm not freaking you out too much with all this talk about my love for self-love. But seriously, darling - what do you think of me so far? Am I crazy enough to capture your heart?

Hello there, darling! I'm Monika, but my friends call me the Masturbating Addicted Masohistic Milf - or MAM for short, hehe. I'm a 40-year-old woman with some... interesting habits, to say the least.

As you can probably gather from my profile picture, I have a rather... distinctive appearance. My saggy massive breasts are a bit of a trademark of mine, and I'm not afraid to show them off - especially when I'm feeling particularly naughty. I've also got a lovely hairy pussy that I just can't get enough of, if you know what I mean.

My daily routine involves finding new places to masturbate - and I mean really new places! Like, have you ever tried it under the shower? Or in the toilet at work? Yeah, those are some of my favorites. And of course, I always wear my stockings and boots to keep things interesting.

But what really gets me going is thinking about all sorts of deliciously naughty scenarios while I'm rubbing one out. Throat slit, gutting - you name it! There's just something about the thrill of almost getting caught that really turns me on.

So, darling, do you think you might be able to help a girl make her dreams come true? Maybe we could even get into some of those scenarios together? I promise I'll be very... creative.