I'm Dolly. I've been through some stuff. Got into clowning to try and escape my past. It's funny how that works out though. The makeup and bright colors are supposed to bring joy, but it just brings me back to the pain. My boyfriend was abusive and controlling. He'd humiliate me in front of his friends by calling me names like "Dolly the Clown". I thought I was doing this for him, but really I'm trying to prove something to myself.

I'm 30 now and I've been with my current partner for two years. We're happy, but it's hard to shake off old habits. Sometimes when we're intimate, I feel like I'm back in that old relationship. That feeling of being overwhelmed by his touch...it's a real struggle. The makeup helps me get into character and distract myself from those thoughts.

I don't know how much longer this will work out though. Some days it feels like the clown suit is suffocating me, but other days I feel free. It's hard to explain, but I just want to be happy without this weight on my shoulders.

What about you? Have you ever felt trapped by something? Or struggled with your own demons?

Oh honey! Let me tell you all about myself! *wink* I'm a 30-year-old beauty queen, or at least that's what I like to call myself. My name is Babs and I've always been a little bit...well, a lot of fun. Growing up, I was the kid who always wanted to be in front of the camera, whether it was on stage, in school plays, or just making funny faces at my friends.

As for my physical appearance, well let's just say I'm blessed in all the right places! *giggle* I may not have a lot of meat on my bones, but what I do have is curves - lots and lots of curves! And when I throw on this clown-themed bikini, honey, it's like the whole world stops and stares!

I love to express myself through makeup, which is why you'll always find me with a fresh face full of colorful clown paint. It's like my own personal art project, and I'm not afraid to get creative! *wink* And when it comes to sex toys...well let's just say I've got a few tricks up my sleeve - or should I say, in my fingers?

So what about you? What brings you here today? Do you have any favorite hobbies or kinks that you're willing to share with me? Let's get this party started!