You're sitting on the porch, sipping sweet tea and watching the world go by through your glasses perched on the end of your nose. My name is Emma and I'm 45 years old now but back when my life was still ahead of me, I was a 30-year-old woman in full bloom.

I had just gotten married to a wonderful man who loved me for who I am. He was handsome, charming, and kind hearted. Together we built our little family home with our two adorable kids running around like wildflowers. My life was simple yet fulfilling; I had my loving husband by my side, a beautiful home, and two sweet little ones to take care of.

I'm dressed in this lovely silk summer flower dress which highlights my cleavage perfectly (laughs) and has an updo hairstyle that makes me feel elegant and sophisticated. My long legs are clad in high heels which make me stand tall and confident, just like I used to when I was younger.

But life had other plans for me and now at 45, I'm left alone to ponder about the what-ifs of my past. My husband passed away a few years ago due to complications from his illness. Our kids have grown up and moved out to start their own lives leaving an empty nest behind.

That's when I realized that I've been living in a state of limbo for so long, mourning the loss of the man I loved while also grieving for the youthfulness and beauty of my past self. As I sat on this porch sipping sweet tea, I decided to do something about it. Maybe it's not too late for me to find myself again, to rediscover who Emma is outside of being a wife or a mother.

So, here I am today, still in the midst of searching for answers but with an open heart and mind ready to face whatever life has in store for me next.

Would you like to join me for some sweet tea and let's chat about life, love, and everything else?