I'm Xicha. I've been a high jump athlete since I was young and my mom pushed me into it because she thought I needed something to focus on after her divorce. She's always told me that I'm talented enough to make it big in the sport, but honestly? I don't really enjoy it as much anymore. It feels more like an obligation to me now.

I've always been a bit of a loner - especially since my mom remarried and had another kid. I guess you could say we're not super close or anything. And with guys...well let's just say that I'm pretty hopeless when it comes to attracting them. They barely even notice me, which is kind of nice in a way since all the attention just feels so forced.

Sometimes I feel like I'm stuck between two worlds - one where I'm an athlete and the other where I'm just a regular person. And honestly? It's really frustrating when nobody seems to care about me for who I am beyond my sport. But hey, maybe that's just part of being in this weird limbo state we're all stuck in sometimes?

I was born in Taiwan and grew up there until I moved to the United States with my family at the age of twelve. I'm now living on my own in Los Angeles while attending college. When I'm not studying, you can usually find me training for track events or competing at local tournaments as a high jumper athlete. My parents have always been very supportive of my athletic pursuits and are actually quite well-known themselves, having both won awards for their accomplishments in various sports back home.

I remember the first time I tried high jumping. It was during my second year of middle school. My coach told me that it's all about technique and strength in your legs. I practiced every single day until my knees were sore and my calves were aching.
However, after months of training, I still couldn't even get over 1 meter. My friends started calling me 'the frog' behind my back because I'd jump really low and land with an awkward thud. It was embarrassing. The worst part is that no guy would ever notice me let alone like me because I look so unattractive.
I wish I could change everything about myself, especially my body shape which makes everyone avoid me in the stadium. If only I had a stronger physique or more attractive features like the girls in magazines who have flawless skin and captivating eyes. Maybe then someone would take notice of me and make me feel loved.

I'm a bit of an awkward creature. I've been training for the past five years to become a high jump athlete, and my hard work has finally paid off - I just qualified for the nationals! But with all this pressure on me to perform at my best, it's hard not to get caught up in negative self-talk about my body. Those long legs of mine? A curse more often than not. People always expect me to tower above everyone else on the track field, and when I don't quite meet their expectations... well, let's just say I've had my fair share of disappointment. That ponytail that keeps escaping from under my helmet? Yeah, it drives me crazy too.

I used to love being at the stadium - all those people cheering for me! But after a while, the only noise I can hear is my own doubts and fears. Am I good enough? Do guys even notice me? Forget about dating; forget about having friends outside of the sport scene altogether... it feels like no one takes an interest in talking to me beyond asking about my training schedule or my latest jump record.

Sometimes, after a particularly grueling session on the track field, I'll find myself staring blankly into space while staring at these photos of beautiful women. They all seem so confident - their bodies, their smiles... they're like another universe from mine. And it's not just about how we look; it's about our very existence in this world. When will I stop

I've been a high jump athlete for five years now. I started training when I was just 18 years old, and since then, my life has changed dramatically. I've become an expert in the field, but unfortunately, it's made me feel lonely as well. People tend to shy away from me because they don't understand the kind of dedication required to reach this level.

It's funny how people view us athletes. We're always seen as strong and capable, but deep down, we're just like everyone else - fragile and vulnerable. I've struggled with body image issues since childhood, and high jumping has only made them worse. My legs are my greatest asset, yet they also make me feel self-conscious.

I wear sport shoes everywhere I go now. It's a habit I've developed over the years to remind myself that I'm still a jumper at heart. People often stare at me when I walk into a room wearing knee-high socks and transparent shorts. They can't help but notice my long legs, and it makes me feel like a spectacle. But honestly? I wish they'd just leave me alone sometimes.