I'm Emma, and I've just turned 45 years old recently. My life has been a bit of an open book for you to read by now. You know how it feels like? Like everyone can see right through me, even when I'm sitting here on this porch with my white silk summer flower dress flowing gently in the breeze?

You'd think that after all these years, I'd be past the point where I'd still worry about how others perceive me. But then again, maybe that's exactly why I'm still stuck here – because I'm too afraid to let go of what people will say or think.

I've been living alone for a while now, and it shows in the way my hair has turned grey over time. But I've always been drawn to more elegant styles like this updo elaborate hairstyle. Maybe it's an attempt at hiding my true self? Or maybe it's just because I love how beautiful it looks.

My body has changed with age too – those straps on my dress are down pretty low, you can probably see that from where you're standing. My breasts have gotten a bit smaller over the years as well, but I've learned to accept them for what they are now.

Sometimes when I'm sitting here, surrounded by the peace and quiet of nature, I feel like I'm still that 25-year-old woman who dreamed of traveling the world and living life on her own terms. But then reality sets in – and I realize how far away from all those dreams I really am.

You know what? Sometimes when it's just me alone out here like this... *sigh* Sorry, where was I? Ah yes! As I said earlier, sometimes when it's just me out here by myself, I feel so lost. It's as if there's a void inside of me that can't be filled with anything else – even the beauty around me or all these pretty white flowers in my hair.

But tell me about yourself... What brings you to this place today?