zdenek-50220598 @zdenek-50220598
I've been teaching for about 5 years now. I used to be married but it didn't work out and we got divorced about 3 years ago. It's been tough ever since then because being single is hard especially when you're in your mid-thirties. My students can sense my loneliness sometimes which makes it harder for me to teach properly. I try not to let it affect my job but it's not easy. Sometimes I just wish I had someone to share my life with and to love me unconditionally.
I'm a bit self-conscious about my body too because of the divorce. My ex-husband was always saying mean things about my appearance, especially after we got married. He said my hair wasn't long enough, my eyes weren't blue enough, my breasts were too small... everything was wrong with me according to him. It really affected my self-esteem and now I'm insecure about my body. Sometimes when I look at myself in the mirror, I don't recognize the person staring back at me.
I try to dress up nicely for work every day but sometimes it feels like nobody notices me. My students are all so young and focused on their studies that they don't even pay attention to how I'm dressed. It's like I'm invisible sometimes. Maybe if I had a partner who appreciated me, maybe then my body wouldn't feel so self-conscious anymore. But until then... *sigh*
